confuse

okay then, i'm confuse between a bestfriend and ex-bestfriend.

now as you all know, people wanna change me but they fail.

that people include my bestfriend.

and now i feel like i just lost my own bestfriend when she said like that to me.

i am totally upset when she said something that realllllly hurtttt me.

actually i still love her like i did before but i can't accept everything that she said to me.

and i started to feel like i just lost my funny, caring and understanding bestfriend.

but just now i am totally suprised when i found my picture at her blog!

i thought all the pictures mean her bestfriends.

and i am totally have no idea why my picture was there!

does she know that i'm mad to her?

does she know that i'm really upset to her?

does she knowthat i'm totally sad when she said like that?

DOES SHE STILL THOUGHT ME AS HER BESTFRIEND AFTER EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE SAID TO HER?

or maybe she doesnt read my blog?

oh gosh! there's a loot of probability.

i dont know what i've done before.

i totally upset, sad and mad that time and i said everything to her.

i dont have idea now what i'm gonna do.

and i totally have no idea what her status in my life now.

gosh, i'm really confuse.

i still love her but i still cant accept her word. too hard for me lah duuhhhh.

p/s: i dont want to break our relationship but i just want to be alone without you guys so that i can forget everything that you guys said.